I just wonder..do you ever..

{ September 3, 2009 @ 5:23 am } · { Uncategorized }

2nd Sept is my 1st day of work..frankly..i don’t have the passion to work here at all..

No excitement at all..Dead..Mood less..Basically it isn’t what i really want..

I can say its my bad..i just want to leave purple sage that badly that i just took the job as a replacement..

But i got survive..without income..i am as as dead as ever..

Purple sage still own my pay..people may wonder..serene change her job again..nothing new..

Yes..i have..like i said..luck is not with me..i love working at purple sage but with their cash flow problem..thus holding my salary isn’t a idea place to work and hang on with..

I am so fucking broke and i only get partial pay from them only..Bad year for me.

Sigh..i just have to hang on and bite through the bullet..

Yesterday night have a sleepless night..body is resting yet mind is wondering around..

I hate this kind of guilt build in me..yet..i admit..i cant help it..

Secretly i did hope he had done something about it..yet till now..it wasn’t..

I guess i had been too into it..afterall it wasn’t for real in any aspect..

I should step out from it before i sink too deep in..

I should put things behind me now starting from the every moment now..

I hate fate and i hate myself even more!

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