After all, my latest updates can be found on my facebook..thus this make me even more lazy to do update at my blog.. In addition, I dont dare to update my inner feeling or thinking of myself on my blog cause..there is certain people i wouldnt want them to know what im thinking and how i feel. so..somehow this stop me from updating..whatever i am writing here is just a surface of my physical updates. Sigh..Well at least my peeps can know how am i doing lately =)

As mention..本小姐wanted to go sun-tanning. After all the talking, finally it was all carried out with one of my bitch on last sunday..Carene. Both of us just like sun-beachy place. The sun is good. It was neither too hot or cloudy. Just nice.. However we are still burnt..Im more like a lobster and carene is more of a crab. If you compare the color of cooked lobster and crab,you will know what i mean.  It’s been a long time i get to connect with the sea-breeze, sunny-sun. The inner serenity within myself is great! Never feel that great before after all the happening things that had happen to me. It was a great way to re-charge myself. And i am having those invisible google look on me.. %^&*(^%^&*().. The stupid sunglass that i wore..sigh..trying to get rid of it! Someone please help me on this..if not on 25th Oct wedding that i am attending for Wen’s brother wedding, i can just kill myself..Sobs..

While tanning and having heart to heart talk with my bitch, i realise we have so much common things with each other. She like to do alot of water sports! she wanted to go for water skid, kaya-ing, diving..jet skid..alot more! Now i have found the perfect khakis for all my future plans!  Other than that, this bitch of mine and me has alot of similarity towards relationship perception as well as our character. With that, we can now relate with each other on our thinking and problems  =) After all the tanning, i had craving for Marche. Thus we went to have our breakfast cum lunch cum dinner there. Never felt so satisfied! It’s been a long time i had my rosti and caesar salad..满足..满足..满足~ =D

Time flies..It is going to be christmas soon. Dont know why..i dont look forward to any of the season festival at all. Perhaps..this will reminds me that 2009 is ending..and i wouldnt be in my 25-year-old. It is slowing reaching to the end of my 20s. This scared me..cause till now i couldnt find what i want in my life..what i set for myself. See-ing all my babes, buddies, friends are getting  married one by one..This scares me too..I guess i am not so ready for all the settle down..or maybe i am afraid of getting old. Ha-Ha..Well..i guess i wouldnt be getting married early for all i know..could be a good thing thou because i still can hang out with my bitches and buddies that much. =D

Well..last year and this year isnt a good year for me.. and i hope..2010 will be a good smooth year for me. Crossing my fingers. Ending off with my latest favorite songs of mine which i find it meaningful..

I guess i wasnt in any of the mood to blog to update myself. I can say i have lost myself totally. I dont even know what i want now. Tired is the word to use on me now. I need my very own me-time.

On side note, work is still okay for me. Running a bit of operation already. Everyday stuck at cafe is really bored me to death. Looking at the jungle al fresco area really bored me.. I have been surfing net for a very long time. Praying hard to get out of the lazy mood that i have. Seriously, been in this company for 1 month plus, i felt that i wasnt working to my best productivity. I know i have slack down a lot. Need to get back my passion of work before they “sack” me. =X

Yesterday night had a meet up session with Jeslyn and i get to see this little rascal god son of mine. He is growing very well and getting real naughty and big now. His birthday is coming. i can smell the burning smell in my pocket now.

One of my buddies is getting married this november and it is no other person (Mark!) It was such a pleasant Surprise! He has not changed at all. Still the same old mark that i know years back when we were at Qbar. Simply miss the good old days when we work at  pre=”at “>Qbar. they are truly the one who see me grow over the years. They are truly the ones who see in ups and downs of me. And neverlessly they are the one who really dote me and stand by me no matter what.. =D RONALD, DESMOND, DANNY, MARK, JOHNSON. I LOVE YOU GUYS! *Hugs..

Not only that Alison’s brother is getting married on the 25th Oct. I am part of the sisters group. Sigh. I can liternally smell forest burning in my pockets already with so many things to pay now. O.o

Last Saturday, I had went to cut my hair. For all my 25 years of life that im living now. This is the most ever daring style that i had. Way much shorter. Shorter that you will never imagine serene chow will cut it. I am slowly getting used to it. However kind of like it too and had received a lots of compliments on it. *winks =D

After matt, i went social house with carene, mark tay, devon, devon groups and my ploy mates. Enjoy myself thou. Kind of surprise that mark tay take care of me like his sister and i appreciate it. seriously..never had such blessings from him to treat me like his own sister. Thank you for being there for me! I cant complain more for those people who truly cares for me.

Sunday, it was my turn to accompany carene for her haircut. We are like super look alike sister now. Same hair cuts, same pattern. Laughs! People did asked us if we are sisters and i cant deny that we have the same unique taste, likings that we had in common. She is just one of the bitch that i love too. And of course  i miss one of my slut bitch too..Natalia! where have you been! Where is the slutty bitch that i used to hang out with. I miss you! sobs.

Did i mention that i need my holiday short trip? Yes..I am deciding to go Bangkok with my buddies Desmond and Ronald this december. It is a form of helping Desmond to celebrate his belated birthday. Seriously i hope it wont have any last minute cancellation of the trip, if not i will be disappointed! if not i am so going to go on my own already. It’s true story. I seriously need a break from everything to re-charge myself and to get back what i used to have to be the serene chow. So Desmond! if you see this..better know what to do! i want to shop and party till i drop.

Oh ya! i am so going to pierce my tongue soon despite that my bitches dont allow me to.  Even though they mention that if i did, they will really get pissed off with me. It will be a secret! =X in additional, i am going to revamp my ankle butterfly soon. Need to plan carefully before i am going to eat air and dust for the rest of the month! 

Fucking hell, this sunday better stop raining! “ben xiao jie” wants to go sun tan! BOO!

Till then..

MELBOURNE (AFP) – – An Australian cat named Smokey survived 13 shots to the head from an air rifle and then found his way home after what police on Tuesday called a “shocking” act of animal cruelty.

The nine-year-old moggy turned up on his owners’ doorstep bleeding from his head last week, three days after he went missing from the family home in Maryborough, central Victoria.

 A medical examination revealed 13 pellets lodged in his head and face. Sergeant Craig Pearse said it was remarkable Smokey had managed to get home after his ordeal.

 ”This is just a shocking incident where someone either working alone or in a group has shown no regard for animal life and left Smokey for dead,” Pearse said.

 The distressed feline had to be heavily sedated while 11 of the pellets were removed, he said, adding that Smokey was expected to recover.

Animal welfare advocate Hugh Wirth said the incident was “utterly disgraceful”, and that Smokey’s tormentors deserved jail. “

Almost certainly these will be young males around about the age of 18 to 20 who have done this,” said Wirth, Victoria state’s president of the Royal Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Animals. “It’s a pattern that we see throughout Australia and there’s only one way to deal with it — and that’s jail.”

It just flow out naturally..never felt that pains..that heartache before..

The last time that i had such feeling was with kesper..

Now it happen to me again.. “zhen de lei le”

I hate it..Shall stop all these real soon..

have to..

have to..

Just one month plus..Born in 29th July 2009..Gender: It’s a girl!

Who wanna be coco’s god mum/dad =D..

Coco still need Leash, Collar, Toys, Comforty bed, gate barriers, dog treats and her food!

No excitement at all..Dead..Mood less..Basically it isn’t what i really want..

I can say its my bad..i just want to leave purple sage that badly that i just took the job as a replacement..

But i got survive..without income..i am as as dead as ever..

Purple sage still own my pay..people may wonder..serene change her job again..nothing new..

Yes..i have..like i said..luck is not with me..i love working at purple sage but with their cash flow problem..thus holding my salary isn’t a idea place to work and hang on with..

I am so fucking broke and i only get partial pay from them only..Bad year for me.

Sigh..i just have to hang on and bite through the bullet..

Yesterday night have a sleepless night..body is resting yet mind is wondering around..

I hate this kind of guilt build in me..yet..i admit..i cant help it..

Secretly i did hope he had done something about it..yet till now..it wasn’t..

I guess i had been too into it..afterall it wasn’t for real in any aspect..

I should step out from it before i sink too deep in..

I should put things behind me now starting from the every moment now..

I hate fate and i hate myself even more!

She makes the hairs on the back of my neck stand up
Just one touch
And I errupt like a volcano and cover her with my love
Babygirl you make me say (Ohh ohhh ohhhh)
And I just can’t think (of anything else I’d rather do)
Than to hear you sing (sing my name the way you do)
When we do our thing (when we do the things we do)
Babygirl you make me say (Ohh ohhh ohhhh)

Sexy love girl the things you do
Keep me sprung keep running back to you
Who I love making love to you
Babygirl you know your my (sexy love…)

I’m so addicted to how she’s the sweetest touch
Just in love
Still to much say that I simp and I’m sprung on I might be your boy
I can’t you make me say (Ohh ohhh ohhhh)
And I just can’t think (of anything else I’d rather do)
Than to hear you sing (sing my name the way you do)
When we do our thing (when we do the things we do)
Oh, Babygirl you make me say (Ohh ohhh ohhhh)

Sexy love girl the things you do
Keep me sprung keep running back to you
Who I love making love to you
Say babygirl you know your my (sexy love…)

Oh baby what we do it makes the sun come up
Keep on lovin’ til it goes back down
And I don’t know what I would do if I would lose your touch
That’s why I’m keepin’ you around… my sexy love

Sexy love girl the things you do
Keep me sprung keep running back to you
Who I love making love to you
Say babygirl you know your my (sexy love…)

She makes the hairs on the back of my head stand up
Just one touch…

I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,
Anymore, do you?

First off let me say congragulations.
Heard that you just had a baby girl.
If she looks anything like her mother,
She’s the prettiest thing in the world.
Swear that I’m not tryin’ to start no trouble.
Tell your fiance he can relax.
I’ll leave you alone for good I promise,
There’s a question I just gotta ask.

I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,                                                                                                                                                                                                      Anymore, do you?

I know what we have is dead and gone.
Too many times I made you cry.
And I don’t mean to interupt your life.
I just wonder do I cross your mind?

I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,
Anymore, do you?

I just wonder
Do you ever
Think of me
Anymore
Do you?

I just wonder
Do you ever
Think of me
Anymore
Do you?

I just wonder
Do you ever
Think of me
Anymore
Do you?

Yeah, yeah, yeah

Luck has been playing with me..what i can say is that i think i lack alot of lady luck for myself..sigh..

Anyway..it has move on..and i think i should strive harder than ever..I am so into finanical crisis now..So broke..=(

Sighs..